27/08/16 - Loser
People always saw me as a loser. To them, I am nothing but a worthless limp of meat.
Shitty job, single, no friends, I live in a shitty place, I don't go out... I basically have nothing for me... In their eyes.
What they all forget is that I'm not here for them or all their bullshit. I mean, I'm fucking done with all this "you have to study hard, find a good paying job and so on".
I am not here to be a good little soldier or a slave to anything or anyone. Especially not society and its good citizen enforcing the one view of a good life they were fed from birth.
I look and sound like a failure so I am one? You know nothing about me.
Single and friendless ? That's actually untrue. Not talking about them does not mean shit. Not everyone needs to validate themselves through other people's eyes. Not everyone needs to sound popular.
I do not have a girlfriend/boyfriend at the moment, but I am not a poor little soul suffering from loneliness.
I don't have many friends, but I know and love them all and they love me back. And if I ever end up in need, I know they would help me.
I don't "go out" because I think nightclubs and bars tend to be crowded with attention-needing people, perverts and drunkards. Or at least, not people I'd like to meet. Not in those conditions. If it's about a walk or a night with friends though, count me in.
Living in a shitty place? That's more than enough for me. Am I the owner or am I renting? Does it really matters? I don't need to have a huge mansion or a massive gold bed to be happy.
Shitty job? Bitch please. There are two things: either I love my job, even if it does not pay well and does not grant me recognition from my peers. Or I do that job to do something I love. Either way, I am happy with it since I can do something love.
I'm done with the cultural pressure. Having good grades, a good pay or material wealth does not mean you're a happy person. And we shouldn't be seen as failures if we don't follow the crowd's will. In other words, fuck your normality.
If I'm happy, then I succeeded in my life. Can you say the same?